diam

Masing-masing diam

Tutup mata

Pekakkan telinga

Buat tak tahu

Buat hal sendiri

Cuba lupakan setiap luka kata

Kadang cuba untuk bergurau

Bangkitkan suasana

Tapi masalah baru y muncul

Masing-masing diam lagi

Tak mahu lagi terluka

hati menangis dalam diam

Tiada maaf diucap

Tiada kata terucap

Kerana kasih dipendam

Tak mahu makin jauh

Takut tersalah kata lagi

Lalu semua….Terus diam

Pendam cinta dalam hati

A SAD STORY

 

there is a boy living alone in his little apartment

where his mom abandon him

he live quietly by himself

he go to a high school and become a very silent boy

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one day  a girl approach him

she said she is also an orphan like him

she always follow him everywhere he goes

she makes joke every day, so the boy won’t be sad anymore

time by time, they become best friend

spending every single time together

together they grow

together they feel something,

but no one ever said something

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the boy who now has become a man

he has cancer like his father

the reason why his mom left him

the reason why he not being able to say his feeling to her, the girl who now has become a woman

because he know someday he will left the world earlier

day by day, his condition become worse

one day, he faints beside the woman he love

when the woman ask, he said he just tired

one day she follow the man to the hospital

she heard that the man he love is so sick 

thinking how much pain he had to bear alone

thinking that the man gonna leave the world soon

she cry alone in the corner, feeling so sad

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the next day, she ask the man

is he has anything to confess to her

anything like any secret he never told her

the man undoubtedly said 'i like you, you are my best friend'

then the woman said 'well, i like you too'

'hmm..if..if you die, do you have any wish ?'

the man said 'i want you to marry to a very good man..'

they smile to each other by crying so much pain in their heart 

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the woman then find a good man

without loving him, she decide to marry him

just to make the wish the man she love come true

when she try the wedding gown,

she ask the man he love to accompany her

they get a picture together

suddenly, the man runs outside and crying hardly in the rain,

he shout loudly for the pain he felt inside,

but nothing gonna change....

the woman cry so much in her wedding gown while holding to the picture

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on the marriage day

the man he love wearing tuxedo and she wears a white wedding dress

he take her hand and walk her through the bride's door

that day the woman smile brightly

on this day, she feel so happy for being with him

then, the man give her hand to the man she marry

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after the ceremony, the man die of cancer at home holding her picture in his hand

the woman who then know the reality,

then just walk away from the man she marry

while looking at the picture they take together

she had been crush by truck on the road

together they left the world....

-the end~

credit to: movie 'A Story Sadder Than Sadness'

FANTASEEING

CHAPTER 1

I have a pair of big beautiful feather wings. And now I’m sitting on cloud. Thinking how I can fly down there where sky is not wide and clear anymore. There are tower, tall building, planes, hot balloon, etc everywhere. The air I breathe feels smoky and dusky. There is a moment when I out of breathe while flying for a very long time through sea pacific, I fall into the water. My feathers become wet and heavy. I can’t fly anymore. All I can do is  gasping for air, trying to survive at the center of the sea where no one knows, hear me shouting for help. I open my wide wings to balance my body. Then I just lay on the sea bed, waiting the time I could reach any shore or maybe Captain Jack Sparrow and his fellow on the Black Pearl ship could found me. It must be fun having him beside, so then I can laugh every day for his stupid jokes when everyone else think it so tricky and sticky. If I’m destined to sink into the sea, I plan to find SpongeBob. Maybe he is kind enough to give me a place to sleep and find me a job at Crabby Patty restaurant. I close my eyes thinking any situation that could happen to me. Any happy possibility that going to make me smile, despite this bad thing that just happen to me. I smile, enjoying every second of my life that might left. I fall in a very deep sleep on the sea bed on this windy cloudy day. Dreaming of me laughing happily while flying high in the sky with Peterpan and his friends through sweet pinky cloud like cotton candy. 

DONGENG ALYA

Percampuran antara realiti & ilusi

       …….mimpi & igauan

Apa lagi erti kebetulan kalau bukan suratan

Lidya/Dya- seorang gadis buta…

Tak pernah mengalah..tak pernah mengeluh…

Dia percaya segala takdir yang tersurat dalam hidupnya punya maksud tersirat.

Ikmal/Mel- lelaki yang punya segala tapi lupa pada asal usulnya, suratan takdirnya…

hanya seorang manusia biasa yang terlupa……terleka..dengan tipu daya dunia.      

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MENCARI CINTA

Hutan jingga, kembali tenang…

Bunyi teriak-teriak monyet makin hilang. Angin yang tadinya laju, kini sepoi-sepoi bahasa. Bunyi unggas jelas kedengaran tatkala malam bertukar tenang. 

Sebentar tadi, Lidya baru sahaja berhadapan dengan satu situasi yang tak tercapai dek akal manusia.

1 jam sebelum…

Kelihatan rumpunan buluh-buluh liar tumbuh rapat membentuk pagar-pagar tinggi mengelilingi satu kawasan rata berumput hijau seluas padang bola. Kawasan itu sepertinya taman yang hanya wujud di alam mimpi, terlalu indah untuk digambarkan dengan kata-kata. Di taman tumbuh pelbagai jenis fauna yang unik dan berwarna-warni. Di tengah-tengah taman pula, terbentang sebuah kolam kecil beserta air pancutan di tengah. Di pinggiran tasik pula, tumbuh dua pohon sakura rendang. Di situ, seorang gadis muda sedang enak tidur di atas buaian jaring yang setiap hujungnya diikat kuat pada kedua belah dahan pohon sakura. Sesekali daun-daun sakura gugur di atasnya. Batang-batang buluh yang bergesel setiap kali angin bertiup, menghasilkan irama seruling senada. Seekor burung tiong putih yang sedang hinggap di atas pohon bersiul sendiri seolah-olah berpuisi. Alunan merdu terhasil. Lidya tersedar dari tidur lenanya apabila sehelai daun sakura jatuh tepat di atas kelopak matanya. Dia terkebil-kebil, kelu sendiri. Pelik dengan suasana yang begitu asing. Apatah lagi, dia lengkap berpakaian indah serba-serbi biru muda persis seorang puteri khayalan. Di atas kepalanya, elok tersisip selendang tebal lembut menutupi rambut, leher dan dadanya. Sejak dilahirkan ke dunia, sudah 21 tahun Lidya tidak pernah melihat dunia. Walaupun dilahirkan buta, anak kacukan Belanda-Melayu ini tak pernah kesal. Dia bertuah kerana lahir dalam keluarga yang begitu menyayanginya dan memberi cukup didikan agama. Dalam kekeliruan itu, Lidya keluar dari buaian dan berdiri di atas rumput dengan berkaki ayam. Menikmati pemandangan pertama paling indah dalam hidupnya. “Subhanallah… Maha Suci Allah yang telah menjadikan alam seindah ini. ” Seperti anak kecil, Lidya menyanyi gembira melompat ke sana dan ke mari. Dia tak kisah semua ini hanya mimpi atau ilusi semata. Sesaat di sini tak pernah wujud dalam kamus hidupnya. Dia duduk di pinggiran kolam sambil tersenyum melihat bayangan wajahnya. Kagum dengan kecantikannya sendiri, terbit sedikit perasaan angkuh di hati. “Ya Allah..apa yang aku fikirkan ni?! Sesungguhnya ada sebab Tuhan menjadikan aku buta, ” fikir Lidya. Sambil tersenyum, dia berpaling ke arah dua pohon sakura tadi.       

 Terkejut Lidya apabila menyedari terdapat bayangan seorang lelaki gagah berdiri tak jauh di hadapannya. Mereka memandang sesama sendiri tak kelip mata. Masing-masing kaku. Lidya yang ketika itu masih keliru cuba mencari paksi ilusi. Apa benar situasi yang sedang dilaluinya sekarang? Apa mungkin ini bukan hanya semata mimpinya sendiri? Siapa lelaki itu? Dalam tidak sedar, lelaki itu sudah berjalan ke arahnya secara perlahan-lahan. Susuk tubuhnya yang tegap, tinggi, berkulit kuning langsat, bertaring di sebelah kiri bibirnya, berbaju kulit haiwan, bertopeng seperti zorro abad ke-15, memegang parang panjang di tangan kiri dan parut panjang di lengan kanannya menggambarkan perwatakan bengisnya. Semakin dia menghampiri, Lidya terhidu bau tengik yang semakin kuat. Lidya cuak. Dia cuba berdiri. Satu-persatu langkah diatur dengan berundur, dan kemudiannya dia berpaling ke hadapan dan terus berlari. Dengan suara garau dia berteriak, “Dya!! Tunggu….ni aku la!” Lidya semakin keliru. “Dia kenal dengan aku? Tak mungkin…” 

Tiba-tiba.........